Some Honest Thoughts About Blogging, And Where I'm Going

Monday, July 9, 2012


If I were to be really honest, I would tell you that although I've gone through blogging "phases"-- from addicted and highly motivated to unmotivated and hating it-- over the past year since I started blogging, the last 4 months have been the hardest.

Actually, the past 7 months have been the hardest because as soon as I found out I was pregnant back in December, my motivation to blog went downhill. When I was battling morning sickness, the last thing that I could stand was the brightness of a computer screen. And since we waited until we were almost out of the first trimester to tell our blog family, it was hard for me to be transparent on here because a huge part of my life was something I couldn't tell you about.

Pregnancy has sucked the creativity out of me. Especially my desire to write. I feel like I'm always "blank."

Back in March, in a desire to fuel my dying creativity, I attended the blog conference Creative Estates. You can read more about my experience here. Like I said in that post, I wouldn't recommend the conference to anyone, but what came out of it were wonderful friendships and I wouldn't trade those for the world-- even though I never once was inspired by that trip, ha!

Unfortunately, a huge part of my heart was let down when I went to that retreat, too. I had such expectations for what it would be like, and how people would be there, that I was crushed when those expectations didn't turn out the way I thought they would. Not only was I grossed out by the turn of events at the retreat, but I was turned off by the heart of some bloggers: how they worship "big bloggers" like celebrities and how they instantly changed as soon as one of them walked in the room. Maybe I'm just at a season in my life where that stuff seems juvenile to me, or who knows, but I seriously was flabbergasted by some of the worship that grown women had for these "big" bloggers. And it ached my heart that I heard people say, "Oh you probably don't even know my blog-- I only have like 45 followers."
How sad that they felt like they had to defend themselves because they had a "small" blog.


[as of last Thursday]

I've had a few other unfortunate incidences where I've watched the blogging community turn mean, cold, and cliquey. That being said-- it's made me really, really sad. I know that all of us are humans, and sinners, but to see some of the rudeness, hate, and meanness come out in the past couple of months among grown women-- it has just broken my heart.

But alas, during one of the happiest seasons of my life, these events really haven't changed a single thing about my happiness overall. Carrying this daughter of mine... what could be more magical? I'm happy every day, quite frankly. But this whole thing... this whole blogging thing has made me question everything about myself and why I do it and it has brought me back to the original purpose of it all: to be me, glorify God, and share bits & pieces of my heart. It's not about me anyway-- it's about Him.

What's driven me, when I haven't felt like it at all, is all of the incredible women that I've met in blog land and the wonderful support system in my "real life"-- the friends and family members that comment or tell me they loved a certain post and to just keep going.

Moving forward, I am going to be taking a break here. I'm not going to not be blogging-- I'm just going to truly blog when I want to blog and not because it's a Tuesday and I need to do x, y, or z. A break to really just enjoy my time before my baby comes, and to just soak it all up. To detox and to fall in love with all of this all over again. To just sit in my baby girl's nursery and daydream about her and read all of those books I've wanted to read in recent months but I haven't had the time to read. A time to be selfish, and a time to prepare. A time to just focus on Jesus and spend more & more time with Him, and Him only. I'm so excited.

The bottom line... blogging has brought MORE good to me than bad. It's been one of the best things that has honestly happened to me. The comments, the baby gifts, the emails, the prayers and thoughts, the late night Tweets and texts-- they have changed my life. I'm a better person since I've started blogging. You all have changed me in many ways. I'm determined to not let the past hold me back anymore. I look forward to having some of my "drive" come back, and really soon, share with you the news that our little peanut has made her grand arrival! :) Thank you all for your wonderful, amazing support over the past 13 months-- you are incredible! You mean more to me than you know! xo

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Jenna@The Life of the Wife said...

I'm so glad you shared this. I know it's been on your heart for a while...and I love you tons for doing what YOU want to do. You enjoy that baby girl (when she comes) and I will always be here no matter if you blog or not. I am SO SO SO EXCITED for baby E!! Eeeeek!!

Kelly said...

i love your heart. i do.
enjoy your time. have fun and be blessed.
4 weeks! 4 WEEKS!!!!
over the moon for you!
xxO

Stesha said...

thank you for sharing this! we will miss you daily, but will be super excited when we get to hear the updates! 4 weeks to go, yipps! Cant wait for you to meet her!

xxS

jennifer. said...

thank you for sharing your heart! i am so excited for your precious bundle of joy to arrive :)

tricia said...

Oh, mama. Thank you for sharing this! You couldn't have said it better if you had tried. :)

This post is such an echo of my heart. Since CE, I have truly been questioning why I do this. I was so discombobulated after what I experienced in AZ that I took a blogging break-ish for the rest of March, just to recover. There are so many changes I want to make in the next few months as I prepare to enjoy life as a stay at home mama.

All of that to say, I LOVE YOU and AM SO HAPPY for you in this decision. You will never have a time in your life like this - the anticipation of your sweet girl's arrival, the blessing of getting to enjoy the quiet, spending time in books and in the Word, and focusing on REAL life.

XOXO

Donna Schultz said...

I am so sorry that your experience was less than pleasant. But you know what, friend? You, like Mary, have chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from you. (Luke 10: 42)

Esther said...

oh i can totally relate. enjoy your break and the last few weeks of pregnancy. you look adorable in your pictures!

Britt @ The Magnolia Pair said...

Wonderfully said! I couldn't agree more with you! My posts have gotten shorter lately and I've drawn back a bit too. It's important to enjoy life and these moments that will only come once.
Good luck with the rest of the pregnancy and I will always look forward to your posts :D

Alli from Life on LeRoy said...

One of my favorite posts I've ever read! Seriously! I love this and you said everything perfectly! I too have come to this conclusion and only blog when I want to, not because I feel like I should. I also hate all the meanness, the "how to blog" posts, etc. There shouldn't be any rules - just blog! Enjoy these last days, get some rest and get ready for the ride of your life ;) Love ya, girl! XOXO

andi {the hollie rogue} said...

right on, friend! you enjoy those moments before and after that baby comes--they go so fast! praying for your growing family. Love ya,
Andi

Makaila said...

Thanks for sharing your heart about this Heather.. I found it echo's my current thoughts on the "blog world" .. a world I was so naive to when I first started, thinking I'd just be documenting my life. There is much more to it, and many many things I don't like and ARE so very high-school mean-girlish. I attended a blog meet up recently and was dismayed and completely shocked by the exact behavior you mention. I commend you for speaking out. AND for getting back to the root of what blogging should be - fun and about YOU! Many blessings as you approach meeting that baby girl.

Lindsay said...

I love this post. You completely put your heart out there and I admire you so much for this. I to have days where I get discouraged. But like you said, the good outweighs the bad. Follow your heart. You look wonderful. xoxo

Stacey said...

Thank you for sharing this! I started blogging in February of this year, and I still feel like I'm finding "my groove" with posting and everything... I so appreciate that you acknowledge the fact that your blog should not have to follow any sort of rigid schedule. Your blog has been a favorite of mine for some time now, and I just admire you even more after a post like this! Congrats and best wishes as you make this shift in blogging, and as you prepare for your precious baby girl to arrive! May God continue to bless you!

*Over the MOon* said...

<3 Take care sweet friend and enjoy the ride :)
Wish I could knock at your door for a coffee date <3 Lots of love <3<3<3 xox

Kelsey Poofy Cheeks said...

Enjoy your break and get ready for that baby!! You are looking great!

Shannon said...

Good luck, Heather! :) Your writing is an inspriation for my little blog w/ 50 followers. I feel I have to defend myself sometimes, and you know what? NO MORE.

Thank you! :)

Shannon.

sarah said...

girl. Im proud of you for sharing your heart on this, and it makes me love you even more. I am so sorry that bloggy peeps have hurt you and grieved your heart - it really is so sad when people get so caught up in it all. But I have a feeling your story here today will touch some people and bring some bloggers back to reality. I am believing God that He is using you and your words right now!

Also, I totally agree and encourage you to take some real time for yourself, and for you and hubby before sweet girl gets here. though life is incredible after baby...this sweet time just the two of you is time you can never ever get back, and it honestly wont ever be the same. (better! but just not the same) :)

Know that I will be your friend and support you whether you blog or not. You have a precious heart and Im glad Ive gotton to know you!!

Love you Heather!!

Mimi Finerty said...

What an awesome post. Sometimes you have to take a step back and be true to yourself to realise what you are doing and where you want to go. Enjoy your blog break and more importantly the birth of you daughter. :)

Kelly said...

What a sweet sweet and honest post! congratulations on your little one!!

Erika @ rouge + whimsy said...

beautiful lady-
i am sorry that you have felt discouraged by yuckiness in blog world and have felt uninspired. my advice to you is to always do what you feel called to do, whether that's blogging or not.
You have a beautiful, gracious spirit that God shines through and I know that even when you've felt uninspired, you have inspired others.
much love to you dear friend and prayers for you in your final (EEEEEE) weeks of pregnancy!
xoxo,
e

Allison Coomes said...

Your blog is beautiful and inspiring...but only a glimpse of what motherhood is going to be like-). Enjoy your time soaking it all in-looking forward to reading about that moment when you meet your little girl!

Katelyn said...

I sincerely appreciate your honesty and that you shared what's on your heart. I've gone through phases too where I feel like this. I think honestly, the best thing to do is exactly what you're doing! Taking period blogging detox breaks to refresh your mind and soul. Because honestly? That's what we write about in these blogs of ours is what's in our heart and soul.

God's blessings to you in your blogging break and as your beautiful baby comes into this world. Love you, Heather!

- Katelyn

Peggy said...

You sweet, sweet girl! As an "old" lady I still know what you are going through. As much as I enjoyed blogging I've become disillusioned. So much seems like a popularity contest.... that said I have to admit I am happy with my 52 followers! I've learned to blog when I want, about what I want and do you know what... it was so very freeing.

So enjoy your time as you get closer to delivering this sweet baby girl! Enjoy every minute of your time with her as a sweet newborn babe! Because I'll let you in on a little secret... they grow up in the blink of an eye. My "baby" leaves for USMC bootcamp in just a few months and our youngest just turned 13... I'm still reeling at how grown up they are...

Know that we will be patiently awaiting every post of yours and that we do understand. There definitely is a season for everything under the sun!

Take care now!!

Amber M. said...

This post is so honest and open and so sweet!
4 weeks til baby!! :D
Don't let the negative get to you.
Sometimes it's hard to keep positive in such a yucky world, trust me. I know. But overall, positive = happy.
*hugs*

Aleisha McD said...

Oh my gosh! I really needed this today. What a great, sweet, meaningful post. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. This post was so timely since last night I had an "anonymous" commenter say some "not so nice" things on my blog. I'm felt kind of sad about it today. BUT, your post has uplifted my heart...so thank you.

Petchie said...

Thank you for sharing!! So true!

xoxo
Petchie
http://itsallofthelittlethings.blogspot.com/

Daisy said...

I absolutely love this! I wrote a similar post sharing my thoughts on "big" bloggers. It is one of the things that turns me off to blogging. Thank you for the reminder of why I write, there is a purpose :) My blog is not all there is. I'm feeling encouraged.

Heather Leigh Riley said...

This post made me "Sigh" XD I just love you! I know what you mean about the blogging part. When I had morning sickness a few months ago. I didn't want to blog at all. Just lay in bed and sleep. I thought being pregnant would increase my blogging imagination but I was kinda wrong there lol. But I honestly can't tell or express how much I am excited to be bringing our daughter into the world!

And it really makes me sad to think that some put bloggers on pedestals. For my short time in blogging I have noticed that as well. And that some are discouraged by their own blogs and followers.
I pray they put their confidence in Christ and not in their blogs. Because God can use a blogger so much. To not only touch their heart, but everyone who reads it! X) I am very happy and grateful for my 11 sweet followers including you, sweet Heather! I am very much looking forward to seeing pictures of your sweet baby girl! Get rest and enjoy your blogging break and last stages of your pregnancy! ;) Yours truly Xoxoxo

carina@a punk, a pumpkin and a peanut said...

thanks for sharing this, sweet friend! i think you're so right, and we could all benefit from a little self examination :) i hope you have a wonderful, restful time before baby arrives. can't wait to see photos of that lovely little lady!!

My name is Wendi! said...

Heather, you are so on point with this post! I've found myself feeling "less than" because my pictures aren't as professional, or my outfits aren't as cute, or I, literally, only have 45 followers. But I started blogging for the exact same reasons you did...and you've inspired me to get back to those reasons. Thank you!

Barbara Mantell said...

I love what Donna S. wrote. Heather, you are not being selfish, you are being wise. Enjoy this time. Don't get dragged down by the computer. Believe me, I get sucked in to it too. I love you so much and am so excited to experience you, Joshua, and baby girl, in this season of your life. You are very very loved. And I love you the mostest, forever and a day:) XOXO Mom

Allyson Butler said...

I love that you were willing to share your heart with us! That is by far my favorite part of blogging, and I feel so blessed to be able to form relationships with sweeties like you through blogs!

The Students Wife said...

I love this post!

The Arizona Russums said...

Rest is a gift from the Lord, friend. I hope you gratefully cherish every minute of it! Love you.

Mrs. Baker said...

this post is so true. thanks for having the courage to share with us. so excited for you to meet your little girl :)

Janna Renee said...

It's amazing that we go through so many emotions from blogging! This is all very relatable and definitely makes me feel like I'm not alone when I get frustrated! {{Hugs}}

Jessi said...

Love you!!! You actually have inspired me to blog only when I really have something to say, to blog something good and not just force it. I think it was your letter to ladies in waiting. I thought, when I take the time to blog, I want it to be something like this! Something that will encourage or challenge others. Something with meaning and passion. So in recent months I've really been trying to do that.

And I'm right there with you as far as losing interest in blogging while pregnant. Maybe we lose creativity or drive, or maybe we just start spending more time doing things that we care about like spending time with family. Take the time now with your hubby. Soak it all up! This blog world will be here when you get back. I love you so much sweet sister and I've been so thankful to find you.

ps- I'm praying for you dad!!

Heather said...

You know my heart says amen and amen. I'm doing the same. Love you friend.

Whitney said...

Thank you for your honesty! I just discovered your blog and am a fellow believer. I love finding Christian women in the blog world! Totally understand as you scale back the blogging and embark on the greatest adventure ever; however I'll look forward to whatever posts you do write!

Mindy Harris said...

stellar post, heather.
love your honesty.
i have been blogging 4.5 years so imagine the kinds of frustrations i've experienced...oh, my!
i've never wanted blogging to feel like a hafto, so i don't blog every day.
i've never been able to make money off of it so i figure what's the point in tiring myself over really "meaty" posts...

Meg {henninglove} said...

what a very truthful and honest post heather. blogging definitely has its pitfalls and while it can be great to meet friends like jamie there is drama, there is like worshipping of bigger bloggers and there is disappointment. i think taking time to focus on this next stage of your life with your husband is a perfect reason to take a break, be present with your child, be present with your husband and don't concern yourself with i need to get posts up, i need to comment, i need to reply. enjoy your break although i do hope to see a few photos of your precious baby when she arrives!

Megan said...

I want you to know this post blessed me in so many ways and encouraged me so much! Thank you for sharing.

Flor said...

your honesty is one of the qualities i most admire about you!
i personally don't put that pressure on myself to blog on certain days.. i just blog whenever i can and feel like it.
life is already too crazy to add one more schedule to keep track of lol :)
enjoy this time nesting and growing your little one.. you'll need all your energy for when the baby is here.. have a wonderful day friend :)

Leilani @ Soleil Selene said...

Thank you for sharing this! I, too, was let down by Creative Estates. But I am glad I got to chat with you as we sat making decorations that were never used.

I've also thought about not blogging. I'm over the cliques, and the meanness. I've already closed down my shop. Now I'm just contemplating my blog.

I'm certain once you settle into new momhood, you'll be back to blogging because your little girl is going to do so many things that you'll want to share with family and friends.

Take care, friend! xoxo, Leilani

Jen | Our Happy Family said...

Thanks for sharing these thoughts... it is sad that there is such negativity in this world! I know I've gone through similar times and just needed to step back and remind myself why I blog and wait for that inspiration...enjoy your time waiting for your little girl!

Urban Nester said...

To encourage you , I love love LOVE your blog . I love it because you're so honest and REAL . I like real :] Thanks for always saying what's on your heart and mind , and not beating around the bush ... Trying to make blogging seem like an easy , peasy , always motivating thing ... Because we all know it's A LOT of work sometimes . Loved this post !

Molly
http://alwaysamrsforeverakidd.blogspot.com

Leslie @ top of the page said...

Heather you are a wise and discerning lady. You are right on, and I love how you are not afraid to respond to exactly what's in your heart. I'm so excited for you to spend a sweet season with Jesus being still and listening. This baby will require you to stick closer than ever to Him so perhaps he is preparing you in that way. You're right, we are all broken, but some of us out here are still fighting the good fight for truth unashamedly. It's not always easy, but it's a call. And however God calls you to share your story in the future, I'm sure you'll follow Him with your whole heart! Blessings!!

Nicole said...

Love you sweet friend! I'm sorry that this has been on your mind while pregnant. I stopped blogging when I was pregnant (after my first lost) and didn't start back up until last December. It was so nice to have that long of a break but I look back and am so sad that I wasn't able to document my pregnancy and the long journey we had. I think I only have 3 preggo pictures of myself b/c I was too sick to care, and that makes me really sad.

know we've talked about it a lot but that baby girl will cherish that you have documented her life, I just need to remind myself of that. CE was so bittersweet for a lot of us.

I love you 'twin' more than you will ever know!!

Rachel said...

I'm so glad to have just found your blog! What a blessing :)

I totally agree with you. I have a 'small' blog and I've wasted way too much time getting bogged down in trying to get more followers.

Nowa days I just blog for the love of it; to record my pregnancy, my photography and my relationship with the Lord and I value it so much more now as a record of my life rather than just a project to make myself feel popular!

Sue said...

I feel the same way you do. I've got things I'm not sharing on my blog right now and it's difficult to know what to write because of that. I hope this phase passes because I love to blog but I've been doing it for years and I know sometimes I love it and sometimes I'm just not interested. Your baby journey has been beautiful!

Abby said...

Oh, my friend. I think I was lucky with the CE experience because I wasn't really a blogger and, to be honest, hadn't read anyone's blog prior to going. I met the people first and their blogs second. I still feel like a very small fish in the big pond of the blogging world, but I also feel like I have some real friendships that came out of the experience.

I think I've told you that I've started numerous blogs over the years. They all failed because I stopped while pregnant or during the baby's first year. I felt pressure to post post post, but real life came first. I'm happier this time around because I decided I wasn't going to be on a schedule and I post when I want to and it will always be real. I do have plans for my blog, but it's not my full-time job and I won't let it cause me stress.

I have loved watching your pregnancy progress and cannot wait to "meet" Baby E! Whatever you decide about blogging, you're stuck with me! There will also be a package making its way to you later this week. :)

xoxo

Ashley Marie Wilson said...

amen heather! i love this and totally agree. you look beautiful! so excited for this time of your life! xoxoxo
ashley marie wilson

Sarah Willing said...

i agree with your mom :) love you!

Krista said...

Love this. Love you. From the minute I read the first email from you I knew you were a genuine soul. Your sincerity and authentic self come through in all you do:) Thanks for that and thanks for sharing this. You look amazing and I am so excited for you!! Enjoy and soak up every minute of this special time in your life. xoxo

Lottie said...

when i first became pregnant i found it so hard to blog and get the motivation to write proper posts but i seem to be a lot better now.

i really appreciate your honesty about it all and i will no longer feel the need to apologise for the littleness of my blog.

i hope you enjoy this time, you deserve to. just take it all in and enjoy every minute :)

Carly said...

Well stated. I agree that blogging should be fun. During pregnancy I rarely had the motivation to blog, since I was so tired. Once that baby comes it is once again fun to share pics of the babe. (for me.)Enjoy your break.

Kassi @ Truly Lovely said...

I've noticed that myself... Ladies being mean and calling out other ladies. Then whole groups of people attacking one another. Hate it. This is supposed to be a happy thing. A fun thing. That's why I started blogging... to share and make friends. Not be included or excluded from the cool kids.
I hope you really enjoy your break and come back completely refreshed! And ready to tackle the blogging world again! And until then, can't wait to meet little Miss E!

jennifer blair said...

This makes my heart happy. I'm so glad you feel this way, honestly. I hope you enjoy savoring the season you're in. Thank you for being such a sweet, authentic blogger! :)

jennifer blair said...

This makes my heart happy. I'm so glad you feel this way, honestly. I hope you enjoy savoring the season you're in. Thank you for being such a sweet, authentic blogger! :)

Kimberly Bonham said...

I am so glad you opened up your heart to share this message. The same question about blogging has been on my heart lately too. I had to take a step back and realize its not about how many followers I have, its not about how much money I can make, its about sharing my love and passion for Heavenly Father through my blog and being able to lift others up because of it. Thank you for this...

ginanorma said...

I think it's good you are doing what's best for you, your family and especially for our Lord God Jesus Christ. The thing is is people will always cling to what's "cool" and who's "cool" and they will leave comments on "cool" blogs and "popular" blogs etc...always. We are in a fallen world, so until heaven arrives on earth, it will always be that way. I have stayed away from most typical things that the blogging world holds, because it's all false. Being popular or big in the blog world, isn't reality, our reality is what's good and True in God, only. We are not measured, truly by our blogs, and a lot of people think they are and then others fall into traps of who's to be admired in blogging etc..like you experienced first hand.
I'm glad to see you standing up and taking a stand--in the blog world, I'm not cool, and that's OK with me--all that means anything is that God delights in me, and I'm beyond cool in His eyes. Nothing else matters.

xo

Jessica said...

you are so beautiful. Thank you for blogging and I am so excited for your little girl to arrive :)

Lisa @ MMT said...

I love this post Heather! I am so glad to see your honesty and sincerity. That's one of the reasons I've been so drawn to you and your blog in the first place. Your love for God and work towards glorifying him has truly inspired me in my life. It caused me to take a step back and work more on my faith.

CE felt like a life time ago! Where I was then compared to where I am now is so different! Your advice and talks during ce helped me so much! Although the creative part of the trip was a bust, I learned a lot about myself from the trip and have grown so much! And I, like you have had to re evaluate blogging and friendships.

I am so excited for you to become a mother and get to experience the wonderful things in life with baby E! Enjoy your time!

Lauren said...

This is an amazing post. I am so glad that there are still genuine, good people out there blogging. It is so easy to get caught up in the "Celebrity" blogging syndrome. We are all wonderful in our own ways. You are an inspiration. I feel the exact same way that you do. You are kind to everyone, 5 followers or 5,000. I remember that about you when I first started blogging.

xo
lauren

Lisamarie said...

Hi there! I miss you! I hope you and baby girl are doing fine. I also hope you will come back to blog one day. I agree with all you said about the blogging community. I started my blog just to become a part of said community. But what I enjoy most about blogs is being able to see into the lives of other people - those like me and those unlike me. Its refreshing boths ways. And once I started my blog, I found that it really is the "small" blogs that I enjoy most. Anyhow... I can't wait for the time you decide to blog again. I know it will be fantastic. And please show us baby girl. You both are in my thoughts and prayers.

The Cantelmo Family said...

I feel the exact same way. I am so tired and being pregnant has sucked every last ounce of me. I have no desire to link up and the most I can do is read (or look at some people's blogs pictures) let alone comment. I feel like a bad blogger. My posts have 0 depth or heart. I barely get the energy to post. I decided to just not deal with GFC or worry about followers. I decided to blog for me and it feels so much better this way! Anyway - I totally get it. Take time for you and your sweet girl. It's not selfish it's just part of life. :-) You have to enjoy this season in your life! You may be surprised because your heart will be so overjoyed and over flowing with love that you will just have to blog all about it :-)

Annie Frase said...

Thanks so much for this post! I have been feeling this same way about the weirdness of the blogosphere, so I am glad I am not the only one. I too have changed how I look at blogging and it is encouraging to know that I am not alone. Best wishes with everything.

Susan said...

Good for you Heather!
Wishing you all the best with your soon-to-be new arrival.
Enjoy every moment. They grow up way too fast.

Annelise @ Aunie Sauce said...

Heather, this post is awesome.

I, too, don't understand the glorifying of normal, everyday people. I love what's on your heart right now! Keep it up! Can't wait for baby!

Amanda said...

I'm just reading this now, but I wanted to say that I totally feel you. Not about other bloggers because I haven't really made any blogger friends yet, though I really did try.

But instead about the pregnancy and blogging. I am just finishing up my first tri, and the thought of getting on the internet almost made me sick to my stomach at times. Maybe it was the movement of the letters on the screen as I typed -- not sure but I practically gagged through it. And so I was writing but not reading, and what's the fun in that?

I've only been doing this about four months, but I've almost stopped multiple times. As soon as I stopped doing blog hops because of morning sickness, my views dropped dramatically and basically only people I know in real life are reading it.

It was disheartening, but then I remembered that I blog because I love writing and because it helps keep me a little bit saner. And so I write but just for myself now.

My husband thinks readers will eventually come. I've kinda given up hope in that, but there's a liberation in that as well.

Enjoy the next couple of weeks. The birth of your first is a time that can never be repeated. It is hard (very hard.) Please don't let anyone tell you differently because it will make things worse. But it is also so very precious. I often look at my now four year old and think back to those early days and I can't even believe that is the same little person.

I wish you all the luck and look forward to reading your posts again whenever they come. Hopefully my aversion to the computer will go away soon!

Erin said...

okay, girl - thank you for writing this. your honesty is just beautiful and really so so true. my eyes got a little teary as i read because what you shared resonated with me. i've seen how blogging certainly be way too focused on numbers and i want to make sure i never get caught up in that, as it can be so easy.

love your heart and will always faithfully read your blog.

xo

Laura said...

Love your transparency and honesty! :) You are so beautiful!!

Lindsay @ Delighted Momma said...

Oh Heather you could not have said it better! I really appreciate you writing your real raw honest thoughts..so many bloggers make everything sound so fluffy. The reason I have not gotten into sponsoring other blogs and getting into blogging clicks (I dont think thats how you spell it but you get the idea ha) is because of this exact reason. I want to blog when I want to blog and if I have a week where my kids are a little more demanding (which is almost all of them now) then I do not blog and I am totally fine with that. I also think it is so hilarious when people treat a blogger different because they have 5,000 or 10,000 followers...so ridiculous! Great post beautiful momma!

kendra @ little almanac said...

I wrote about these same feelings about 2 weeks ago. I am so happy for you to be able to recognize the reason for your blog and your love for sharing your life for YOU and for no one else. Excited for your babe to get here!

Samantha said...

You and your blog are just beautiful! I absolutely love your writing style, and I hope that you fall in love with blogging again because as a new follower I can't wait to read more from you! :)

ZADIN said...

You are a great person!

May your birth be easy and may your daughter be healthy.

She is one lucky human being for having a mother like you.

Elle said...

I just wanted to let you know I really enjoyed reading this. I too have noticed this almost competition in the blog world...and what is even more scary is sometimes I feel myself getting sucked into it.
I never started my blog to see how many followers I could get or try to be popular. Honestly I wasn't sure anyone would ever read it and didn't really care. I just wanted a way to journal my passions for life, art, fashion, design, etc. If people like what I like and want to follow me then wonderful, if not, no problem! And still...every once in awhile I find myself getting sucked in to need to be bigger and better and have to get a reality check! I'm glad you are taking this time to focus on what you want...and not what others expect!
Enjoy yourself!!

~ Elle @ Barefoot and Beautiful

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